end to the old

Well it was to good to last. My relationship is over. It is now time to move on. Things change and people change. I now moved back to Midwest city and will find a place of my own. I will start a new life. Things will be better. I still love him, but it is now over.

lonely nights

At night I am alone. The love of my life works nights. He comes home and goes to bed and I don't get to say a word to him until he wakes up at around 3pm. I sometimes have a hard time getting to sleep. On the weekends when he gets home, I get to sleep in just long enough for us to hold each other. The sound of him breathing and his heart beating puts me right back to sleep. In his arms I feel safe.

It has been a while sense my last blog. I have been busy. God has a way with answering us when we pray. It may not be exactly what you were praying about, but he knows what we do and do not need. I have been praying for something and me being the human that I am thought that he would answer right away. Well God answers in his own time. Some of us need to learn that if we pray, we must wait and listen. It will not be that very same day, it might be next week that you get what is needed, or even the next year. Some of us tend to read the Bible wrong and our human way of thinking gets in the way and that leads to the devil being able to sweep us off our feet. Then we end up back in the hole we were trying to climb out of before. I should know. I have been in the same hole for so long that for a while I got use to living in it and thought that this was how things are suppose to be. Now I am slowly trying again to climb out of the hole, but this time I will not do it alone. We should never be ashamed to ask for help. As I asked for help, I have learned new things about myself that I have never knew before. Maybe it is time for you to take a good look at your life. Are you at a point of no return or is there hope yet. I pray that God will watch over you and I hope you learn something new everyday.

Excitement on becoming an aunt

The day I found out that I was becoming an aunt was an exciting and scary day. It was exciting because I get to be an aunt. It was scary because it made me realize how old I really am. The day I first got to see the little one was at an ultrasound appointment. My sister-in-law, my Brother, and I got to see it move. I was so moved, I wanted to cry tears of joy. When I found out that it is going to be a girl, my heart leaped for joy. I found out that she will be born in June, that made me even more happy, because my birthday is in June. I may live about an hour away from them, but I will find a way to be there the day she is born. I want her to know that her aunt is there for her and will love her forever. The day she comes into this world, I want to be there. I am so excited.